i got a hunch that the next few days will be quite a nightmare for me. jia you theodora(:
Friday, March 27, 2009{ 5:58 AM }
"And the last seven months meant nothing. And his words in the forest meant nothing. And it did not matter if he did not want me. I would never want anything but him, no matter how long i lived." -Bella, new moon
Thursday, March 26, 2009{ 6:12 AM }
everyday i'm fighting with myself.
i think you are such a wimp. you know you just make me feel that you are so fake.
Sunday, March 22, 2009{ 2:10 AM }
i think everything now is just CRAZY!!! my world is like going upside down, and i dont know what is happening and why it is happening. maybe it's just a dream. i'll wake up from this nightmare won't i. i will i will i will. then everything will be back to normal(: i will wake up soon, i'm sure:(
since my world is upside down now, talk to my feet.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009{ 10:45 PM }
holidays are killing me! there's like so many things to do yet i have so little time. and because it's the holidays, i feel more slack than usual. sigh. there's just so many things to finish and so little time.
i'm just so scared and traumatised.
Monday, March 16, 2009{ 7:07 AM }
Broken strings by James Morrison ft Nelly Furtado Let me hold you for the last time It's the last chance to feel again But you broke me, now I can't feel anything
When I love you and so untrue I can't even convince myself When I'm speaking it's the voice of someone else
Oh, it tears me up I tried to hold on but it hurts too much I tried to forgive but it's not enough To make it all okay
You can't play our broken strings You can't feel anything That your heart don't want to feel I can't tell you something that ain't real
Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse How can I give anymore When I love you a little less than before?
Oh, what are we doing? We are turning into dust Playing house in the ruins of us
Running back through the fire When there's nothing left to say It's like chasing the very last train When it's too late, too late
Oh, it tears me up I tried to hold on but it hurts too much I tried to forgive but it's not enough To make it all okay
You can't play our broken strings You can't feel anything That your heart don't want to feel I can't tell you something that ain't real
Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse How can I give anymore When I love you a little less than before?
But we're running through the fire When there's nothing left to say It's like chasing the very last train When we both know it's too late, too late
You can't play our broken strings You can't feel anything That your heart don't want to feel I can't tell you something that ain't real
Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse So how can I give anymore When I love you a little less than before? Oh, you know that I love you a little less than before
Let me hold you for the last time It's the last chance to feel again
{ 6:26 AM }
gp is a total screw up. all the essay questions that came up were the topics i wasnt familiar on. i wanted to do the environment one but i dont understand the question. so i figured out i might as well not do it. and i chose something that i wrote nonsense about. i dont even know what i'm trying to say! look as though i just went back to primary school. and paper 2 was worse. i couldnt explain the words and i didnt know how to paraphrase the summary. AQ was..bad. i only wrote two paragraph and all is on passage 2. sure get like 0 or 1 only. i am going to fail gp.
it's so scary. now i'm so terrified i wanted so much to hide myself away. your game is terrorizing me.
Wednesday, March 11, 2009{ 7:20 AM }
life is so vulnerable that we should cherish every seconds of the time spent with our love ones. who knows what tomorrow brings? suddenly i felt so guilty taking things for granted, acting as though i am suppose to have what i am having now. but i am wrong. god have a choice not to give me whatever i have now. in due time, he will take them back. they will all go back to him. so maybe this is the time i start appreciating the things and people around me. i thank my parents for giving me a chance to see this world and bringing me up with love, care, money and education. i thank my aunt for giving me tuition seeing that my physics is really horrible. i thank my friends for accepting me and also accepting my nonsense many times. i thank god for every single day i live. i thank him for giving me what i have and making me who i am. do be thankful for everything you have lest you regret not loving them when they are gone because you wont know when it will be gone. may you get well soon.
my guardian angel died many years ago and from then on, i never believed in angels anymore.
